I don’t often write my posts back to back but today i felt the need to write something. World suicide prevention day is today and as some of you may know i hold this subject very close to my heart. I’ve watched my family look to suicide for help and i too have done the same.
Suicide is a subject most of us don’t talk about, but we need to. You sit there with your mind racing into a million different places and you feel so helpless and alone. When you drown yourself in pain for so long at some point you give up. You give up from fighting the demons away, you give up from the suffering and endless amount of pain you feel each and every single day. Suicide isn’t just a way out, it’s seen as the only option left.
For me it was my only option left, i needed help but i didn’t know how to get it. I decided the only way to end my pain was to die. Knowing you need help is one thing but actually getting that help is tough. I found myself pushing away help for so long, I didn’t want help because i wanted to deal with things on my own, i didn’t want to be seen as weak.
Getting help takes great inner strength in fear of feeling like a failure or weak. But change needs to happen, you’re not weak for asking for help it takes great courage and strength to take that first step. If these experiences have taught me anything it’s that when you take that first step it becomes so much easier, you stop lying to yourself and you make yourself worthy of being helped.
If you’re feeling suicidal please take that first step, life may seem like it’s never going to get better but all great things take time.
You’re worthy of help and it’s okay not to be okay…
You have the power to say “this is not how my story will end”