A short thank you…

Two years ago, I woke up to see my life shattered around me, I no longer had anything just the few people who stood by my side.

A domino effect struck my life and kept taking away everything that meant something to me until I believed in myself. I felt lost, I quit my job because I felt so helpless, my family dynamic changed, and I lost more than I ever believed I would.

For a long time, I allowed everything to consume me. I locked my bedroom door and let my sorrows drown me. It was to be expected, but at the time I never saw this whirlwind of emotions ending, for some reason everything I did would shatter around me.

My anxiety took over and so did my depression. Until one day my depression didn’t affect me anymore. I saw the brighter side.

Although my depression didn’t affect me like it once did, that didn’t mean I wouldn’t face other battles. The past few months have been ones I’ve kept pretty secretive. I remember I was someone who always felt motivated to get up in the morning and pursue whatever it is I wanted to do, but that fizzled out and I was left feeling lost.

I’ve always been a big dreamer and when I finally did try, people would put me down. It hurt, it knocked my confidence so much so that I was back to square one. Looking back and even now when people knock me, I don’t know why I let it affect me so much. It hurt, but I’m different and so is everyone else… “not everyone thinks the way you think, knows the things you know, believes the things you believe, nor acts the way you would act.”

I don’t know what came over me, but I no longer cared. I knew what I wanted to do, and that was all that mattered because for once my happiness was all that I cared about.

I’m nowhere near the finish line, I have a long way to go but finally, I see an ending to this hurt. I’m finally rebuilding my life no matter how small those steps are.

If you’re like me and you’ve felt lost, confused, one day you woke up and had nothing or you have a dream that people keep knocking.

Then know, that life’s too short and no matter what you do someones going to knock you down. It’s the getting up, and carrying on that makes you stronger, more powerful and able to finally free yourself from any hurt. Do what makes you happy and follow your dreams no matter how bizarre or impossible they may seem.

Never in a million years did I think I’d be back on the right track, but finally it’s getting somewhere, and if I can do it then you can too.

I also have a lot of you guys to thank. Sharing my journey has kept me going and without your response, I wouldn’t have found the strength to keep going. So I thank you all for helping me pursue my passion.

 

So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will,they become inevitable.

 

 

 

 

 

8 thoughts on “A short thank you…

  1. And thank YOU for writing such heartfelt, honest posts and for sharing your journey with us, Kirsty. Nobody can ever fully know or appreciate the experiences you have as they’re unique to you, but I do get what you mean with others and how they treat you or knock your dreams. It doesn’t matter how much you don’t want to care about what others think or how they behave towards you, it doesn’t make it any easier to ignore it. It’s really, really hard, and if you’re even slightly more confident and able to care a little less, then that’s a huge achievement. I’m 31 now and it’s taken me this long to start getting somewhere, but there are still way too many times I care too much. I wish I didn’t, but I do, even in ways I don’t always realise. You matter more than the opinions of others. If someone puts you down or knocks your dream, say f*ck it and think how badly it reflects on them, how little they must feel to put someone else down to make themselves feel better. This is your life, you live it and you own it. Keep going  ♥ ♥ ♥
    Caz xx

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    1. Thank you, and definitely! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again everyone experiences are completely different no matter how much you try to understand you’ll never truly know what someone feels. It’s about sharing your experiences and maybe someone somewhere feels slightly how you do. It’s so hard not to care about other people’s opinions, it’s such a tough journey to go on, one that I’m pretty sure the most of us do! Thank you again ❤

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  2. Hi Kirsty! I just noticed you when reading a blogger’s posting and now that I looked you up it is very apparent that you’ve been going through some very difficult times without a doubt and for good reason. This is a hardship that came without you doing anything to cause it so that is he very saddest part to me. But I’ve been reading many of your comments and I see quickly that you are a very bright woman and with no doubt in my mind quite resilient! I know you’ve got this totally under control and are coming out on the positive spiritual enrichment side of it all and going on to very good things in your future! I’d like to find out a bit more before i say too much because the last thing I should do is second guess in such important matters that really aren’t my business, but, because you’re so brave and willing to look for truth and understanding I think I might be able to help in that department when and if the opportunity comes into focus! So, regardless of what you decide about what I’m saying and if we ever have an exchange of any importance I know you have qualities and gifts that God put there for good reason, and that makes you very special of course to God but also to some people who will learn this about you and be able to share more in time. This is a good point to specify as I’m thinking you know about it very well, but, in anything you do “take time,” in order to always be sure you’re hearing the right message in your own heart and soul, then you can be on the right path and not lose sight of where you ultimately are headed! Be safe and blessed! 🌹🙏🌷🌷
    Lawrence

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      1. 🙂 Good Sunday morning Kirsty Marie,
        I just woke very early after about five hours of sleep about an hour ago and have been writing some important things and reblogged but was going to check something next. And, your message beat me to the punch being at the top of the cue here, so I just got my start to a great day receiving your message! You touched my heart because I was hoping to hear from you soon and just last night before I fell asleep I thought how I hadn’t heard from you and wondered if my message went through OK and I better double check today; so you were a God Sent message here right now! I want you to know I’m happy to know you because your story and life have touched me and I now have tears in my eyes again; I care about you, and I want you to know that! But, in that the most important thing is God does care about you more than any of us can actually fathom, and the good thing as you know is He saved us and will bring us to heaven to be with all of our loved ones being in the glory of God through Jesus Christ; we just need to hold His hand and try our best here, because it will be fine, just keep believing in Him and this miraculous gift of life He gave to us all! I’m a new brother in Christ Jesus for you and a friend, a real one, so even though you don’t know me from Adam, I’m here telling you I promise I’m for real and I’m always willing and able to listen, while trying my best to help in any way.
        God bless you, Kirsty Marie.
        Brother in Christ Jesus,
        Lawrence
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